♥ Thursday, June 17, 2010
I just really wanna get this fucking cheebye things out of me .
Have you ever felt like , whenever you need some one to talk to , Really need , there's no one to talk to ? Your friends just turn away , and don't give a fuck about you . Yea, FRIENDS . Like this you can call friend uh ? Even your dam bestfriend, wouldn't give a damn . Like you wanna talk about things like, things that is bothering you , then your best friend just try to change topic .
- What th fuck ? Yup , that's why I started talking to my pillows and soft toys .
'Cause people just turn away , when i seriously need a listening ear .
Whatever , call me weird, call me stupid , call me dumb, call me retard .
I talk to myself , i talk to my soft toys, I talk to my dog , I talk to my plants, I talk to my everything .
Zi bi zheng , <--- I got zi bi zheng . yay stay away from me . :l
Remember ? I once locked myself in my room th whole week , without eating, yes i did ate some snacks . Without bathing, too . Call me dirty , whatever . Why did I lock myself in my room ?
-Everyone neglected me . A lot people hates me . People thinks I'm scary .
boohoo ? And then , Some times I really wanna get things out of me , but i have no one to talk to .
So I started talking with my soft toys . Don't think 'I thought that you can talk to Fatema'
C'mon that was Holiday , I can't contact her phone and she's away .
But she was th only one that always, ALWAYS cheers me up. Despite th fact that I'm really really not a good friend.
I tried to be .
I was just being friendly , and then people start to misunderstand me . People think I'm trying to get attention . And then hate me .
Am I just being over-kind over-friendly ?
Maybe i should really stop being kind and friendly , I was actually , a very bitchy girl Fyi (:
Remember those times that I scold people for no reason at all , vulgarities here and there . Fighting . Maybe i should be like that again (: - This sentence , i said a lot of time but i didn't do it . Cuz when I start to become rude, my friends will be like 'are you okay?' 'you seem very weird'
Tell me what the fuck should i do ?!
I do this wrong , i do that also wrong . What people want from me bodoh ?! I angry , people misunderstand me say I hate them . I angry with myself I SERIOUSLY IS BEING ANGRY WITH MY STUPID IDIOTIC RETARDED SELFFFF . I really gonna suffer from depression soon seriously . Everyday in room cry cry cry cry . Also useless! Do you all know , i fucking have feelings too . I GET HURT EASILY . AS EASY AS ABC . YOU SCOLD ME 1 WORD I ALREADY VERY UPSET . PLEASE STOP LOOKING AT MY CHEEBYE BITCH FACE AND SAY I ANGRY WITH YOU ALL DAMN IT . IM BORN LIKE THAT MY FACE VERY USED TO LIKE THAT WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL WANT .
My parents say I very rude to them because of my face! THEY GIVE BIRTH TO ME WITH THIS FACE WANT ME DO WHAT BODOH . SERIOUSLY LAH FUCK MY LIFE. Tears really can't stop rolling down my face. Tsk whatever lah , no one will understand.. I really feel like dying , im not being emo or whatever, laugh at my life people , laugh..
Expectation , give me an expectation ? It'll only turn out to be disappointment.
It's like only Fatema understand me , and leffy . Thanks, you guys (: ..
Fatema cries whenever i cry , haha.. thanks Lol (:
Have you ever felt like , whenever you need some one to talk to , Really need , there's no one to talk to ? Your friends just turn away , and don't give a fuck about you . Yea, FRIENDS . Like this you can call friend uh ? Even your dam bestfriend, wouldn't give a damn . Like you wanna talk about things like, things that is bothering you , then your best friend just try to change topic .
- What th fuck ? Yup , that's why I started talking to my pillows and soft toys .
'Cause people just turn away , when i seriously need a listening ear .
Whatever , call me weird, call me stupid , call me dumb, call me retard .
I talk to myself , i talk to my soft toys, I talk to my dog , I talk to my plants, I talk to my everything .
Zi bi zheng , <--- I got zi bi zheng . yay stay away from me . :l
Remember ? I once locked myself in my room th whole week , without eating, yes i did ate some snacks . Without bathing, too . Call me dirty , whatever . Why did I lock myself in my room ?
-Everyone neglected me . A lot people hates me . People thinks I'm scary .
boohoo ? And then , Some times I really wanna get things out of me , but i have no one to talk to .
So I started talking with my soft toys . Don't think 'I thought that you can talk to Fatema'
C'mon that was Holiday , I can't contact her phone and she's away .
But she was th only one that always, ALWAYS cheers me up. Despite th fact that I'm really really not a good friend.
I tried to be .
I was just being friendly , and then people start to misunderstand me . People think I'm trying to get attention . And then hate me .
Am I just being over-kind over-friendly ?
Maybe i should really stop being kind and friendly , I was actually , a very bitchy girl Fyi (:
Remember those times that I scold people for no reason at all , vulgarities here and there . Fighting . Maybe i should be like that again (: - This sentence , i said a lot of time but i didn't do it . Cuz when I start to become rude, my friends will be like 'are you okay?' 'you seem very weird'
Tell me what the fuck should i do ?!
I do this wrong , i do that also wrong . What people want from me bodoh ?! I angry , people misunderstand me say I hate them . I angry with myself I SERIOUSLY IS BEING ANGRY WITH MY STUPID IDIOTIC RETARDED SELFFFF . I really gonna suffer from depression soon seriously . Everyday in room cry cry cry cry . Also useless! Do you all know , i fucking have feelings too . I GET HURT EASILY . AS EASY AS ABC . YOU SCOLD ME 1 WORD I ALREADY VERY UPSET . PLEASE STOP LOOKING AT MY CHEEBYE BITCH FACE AND SAY I ANGRY WITH YOU ALL DAMN IT . IM BORN LIKE THAT MY FACE VERY USED TO LIKE THAT WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL WANT .
My parents say I very rude to them because of my face! THEY GIVE BIRTH TO ME WITH THIS FACE WANT ME DO WHAT BODOH . SERIOUSLY LAH FUCK MY LIFE. Tears really can't stop rolling down my face. Tsk whatever lah , no one will understand.. I really feel like dying , im not being emo or whatever, laugh at my life people , laugh..
Expectation , give me an expectation ? It'll only turn out to be disappointment.
It's like only Fatema understand me , and leffy . Thanks, you guys (: ..
Fatema cries whenever i cry , haha.. thanks Lol (:
Ebellll .
♥ Wednesday, June 16, 2010
AYEBOOYEAHOIHELLOBONJOURGOODDAY!
SORRY , didn't update my blog super long - -"
'Cause I'm busy doing homework , Not .
D<>
Then heard got maths homework shit one . Arghh -.- .
I.Am.13.Years.Old LOL -.- ps crapping . I beli bored naoooooooooozxczxczxczxczxc >:
I realise I didn't posted about my Birthday . HAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAAA -.-
It was, okay-awesome . Got pissed off a few times . And awesome birthday presents, will upload th pics next time :b .
sorrysorrysorrysorry Ebel is too lazy ^^
It's 13 days after my birthday mannnnn . I lived for 13years 16 days. o.o idk my calculation got prob -.- .
Idk what to post about , Choir camp was not awesome at all. Except for th Water bomb and Night walk and sleep part and watch movie part .
And th first day i went to school, too early .
Suppose to assemble by 8am and i reached school at 7am .
What.Th.Fuck. So waited for 1 hour there . Nothing do :/ .
Watch people walk in from gate shit one LOL .
Then , Day1
Assemble>Go classroom put bags+ grouping>make a group name and cheer>Play musical chair , poison ball > forgot > ehh.. perform cheer? > Lunch > Ice breaking games> games> Water bomb !> Shower > Assemble at AVA room > ... plan th performance for Performance night?> Dinner> Performance> Nightwalk!>Back to AVA room> Movie timeeee> Sleep .
Day2
>Wake up> Brushteeth do this and that> Move back th .. mattresses> Movie> Breakfast > Blanket game > Don't forget th lyric !> forgot> Prize giving > HSH
LOL , my group name call dunnowhat Perfect 10 . Laughed a lot LOL . They keep on make racist joke at first , buddhen super funny . LOOOOOOOOOLLL .
HAHA , super funny can already LOL . Then I need sing , very xiasuey ): . For th Don't forget th Lyrics . They all say i know a lot song -.- . Then idk what to choose . LOL
Chose David Archuleta songs, since Justin Bieber , Taylor Swift and Iyaz other group chosen already .
LOL , A little too not over you - David Archuleta ! Last time I keep on listening . HAHA
Nearly forget how sing .
After camp , kept staying at home already . Did go out with Praise lah LOL .
Hope Praise's fever is better now O: .
I beli tired and beli bored . Audi-ed this afternoon with Joven , HAHAHAHA , he won me ):
LOL, he beli beli beli pro :D :D :D :D :D .
Then stayed at home whole day . Ordered McD for brunch .
Actually morning went buy McD also LOL . Niceeeeeee man then watch Sesame street (Y) !
So nice ! :D :D :D
It's 9:34PM naoooooo , going sleep . Seriously too tired. Slept at 4pm+ yesterday wtf .
Woke at 2am+ =-="
Till now . Muhahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Buaibuai ^^ I finally update . <:
SORRY , didn't update my blog super long - -"
'Cause I'm busy doing homework , Not .
D<>
Then heard got maths homework shit one . Arghh -.- .
I.Am.13.Years.Old LOL -.- ps crapping . I beli bored naoooooooooozxczxczxczxczxc >:
I realise I didn't posted about my Birthday . HAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAAA -.-
It was, okay-awesome . Got pissed off a few times . And awesome birthday presents, will upload th pics next time :b .
sorrysorrysorrysorry Ebel is too lazy ^^
It's 13 days after my birthday mannnnn . I lived for 13years 16 days. o.o idk my calculation got prob -.- .
Idk what to post about , Choir camp was not awesome at all. Except for th Water bomb and Night walk and sleep part and watch movie part .
And th first day i went to school, too early .
Suppose to assemble by 8am and i reached school at 7am .
What.Th.Fuck. So waited for 1 hour there . Nothing do :/ .
Watch people walk in from gate shit one LOL .
Then , Day1
Assemble>Go classroom put bags+ grouping>make a group name and cheer>Play musical chair , poison ball > forgot > ehh.. perform cheer? > Lunch > Ice breaking games> games> Water bomb !> Shower > Assemble at AVA room > ... plan th performance for Performance night?> Dinner> Performance> Nightwalk!>Back to AVA room> Movie timeeee> Sleep .
Day2
>Wake up> Brushteeth do this and that> Move back th .. mattresses> Movie> Breakfast > Blanket game > Don't forget th lyric !> forgot> Prize giving > HSH
LOL , my group name call dunnowhat Perfect 10 . Laughed a lot LOL . They keep on make racist joke at first , buddhen super funny . LOOOOOOOOOLLL .
HAHA , super funny can already LOL . Then I need sing , very xiasuey ): . For th Don't forget th Lyrics . They all say i know a lot song -.- . Then idk what to choose . LOL
Chose David Archuleta songs, since Justin Bieber , Taylor Swift and Iyaz other group chosen already .
LOL , A little too not over you - David Archuleta ! Last time I keep on listening . HAHA
Nearly forget how sing .
After camp , kept staying at home already . Did go out with Praise lah LOL .
Hope Praise's fever is better now O: .
I beli tired and beli bored . Audi-ed this afternoon with Joven , HAHAHAHA , he won me ):
LOL, he beli beli beli pro :D :D :D :D :D .
Then stayed at home whole day . Ordered McD for brunch .
Actually morning went buy McD also LOL . Niceeeeeee man then watch Sesame street (Y) !
So nice ! :D :D :D
It's 9:34PM naoooooo , going sleep . Seriously too tired. Slept at 4pm+ yesterday wtf .
Woke at 2am+ =-="
Till now . Muhahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Buaibuai ^^ I finally update . <:
Ebellll .
♥ Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Sorry didn't update for veryyy longgggggggg .
Going camp later, after camp i WILL post .
LOL , camp till 11june .
Going sleep now
Miss me alright? LOL . :D
Must message me a 'good night' tonight :D
Cuz i scared ghost ): LOL -.-
K byebye i only left 1 hour to sleep -.- .
MISS ME (L)!
-EBEL! (:
Ebellll .
